Scott and I have been married now for over 7 years and how great it has been! I just love being married!!! I still miss my babe when I'm at work and his voice is still the most soothing thing to me in the world. As most of you know, Scott and I are at the stage in our life where we are trying for a baby. I am so thrilled to be at this point in my life. Yes, I'm anxious, but I find so much joy in the anticipation of what's to come. I have friends around me that are pregnant and one who is my charting budding that is trying as well. This past week I had two instances where people have given me the impression that they thought that I would be jealous to learn of someone else's pregnancy. It was the strangest thing.
As I was laying in bed the other night I was pondering about this a bit more. So many woman who are trying themselves must have this feeling of jealousy when they hear of others that are pregnant. That's why I have had people assume that I would be. My feelings about that kind of news could not be farther from that.
I think that being blessed with a life inside you is one of the greatest gifts God can give. He is the creator of life and all things. God is the CREATOR! And to think that He has blessed woman with the ability to have children; to have life grow inside them, and to then give birth to that child. That child from conception is a part of you and will always be. That's how He feels about us!!! It just amazes me that I, being a woman, have the ability to experience, on a small scale, what God feels for us. I think the love for your child is the greatest love we can have for another person. I think it's the closet thing on earth to God's love for us. I'm so thankful to be a child of God and even more blessed to be a WOMAN of God. No jealousy here. To hear that another woman will be experiencing that miracle and that love excites me greatly.
Ask anyone I know, I just love babies and I so long for one myself, but I have given my life to Christ and I pray for His will in my life. Oh, how I'd love to experience that miracle of life inside me, but above all I know my desires are so small in comparison to how great God is. I guess that is the difference between me and some woman out there that are just filled with jealousy. Any emptiness I have is filled with Him. Everyday and everything I have here is a blessing and I continue to pray....
God your will be done. :)