Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Empty Arms

We have had another unsuccessful attempt to get pregnant. I did not even respond to the drugs. I'm not comfortable, at this time, moving forward to the next step of treatment. The day I found out was tough, I really grieved. I thought by now I would at least have belly pictures on my blog.

Have you heard Christians say that in hard times Christ has given them an indescribable peace and comfort? I've felt this before, and though I had a day of grieving, I am in that place. I can feel the arms of the Lord around me more than ever before. Scott and a friend from church gave me comforting words. "It's OK to grieve, but don't let that grief rob you from the joy that God gives you". I am just amazed how God is working in my life. He has given me everything I need and more!

I've always had a strong desire to be a mom and like most woman had that dream of going through all the joyful steps of conceiving, carrying a baby and child birth. Maybe that is still in store for me, but Scott and I are both at the place where we are ready to become parents. We are praying that God fills our empty arms with a child, that He will open doors and bring us the baby that we so long for through our new journey of adoption. We are so excited! That place of grief is being filled by so much joy and excitement for what is to come!

"And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:7